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| I love you. I don't know what to do with you. I've drawn a line somewhere in my mind, but these thoughts just can't conclude. I fear you. I think you fear me too. What to do when bodies touch, when souls collide. You're apart of me, you stick like glue. I want to confess everything I've ever hidden to you. I may not be who you think I am, but you love me just the same. You are so good, and I don't want to ruin you. I'm sorry that I'm selfish. I'm sorry that I want you. But I'm more sorry that you want me too. I shouldn't have said it, but I don't regret it-- I'm not ready to forget you. Lay with me, won't you. Lay with me still. I want you, I want you. I'll love you. I will. We don't have to speak. We don't have to move. Just be near me, beside me. That's all. That's all. You've said it before. Please say it again. You love me. You need me. Come back to me. I'm here. | | |
| So much just keeps happenning. Mood swings seem rather current, and I'm trying to understand my own thoughts, my body and my needs.. while at the same time, trying so hard to figure out the people around me. I don't know what people want from me, and I don't even know if they want anything at all. I'm beginning to feel as if I'm the one being led on by everyone else, and the only one that hasn't been filled in is me. I think that so much of it has to do with how baddly I miss home right now. Breaking down in the middle of class is really out of character for me. College. Shit. How the hell did I end up here? It's so hard to grasp.. I'm honestly in the best college imaginable, and I'm still not completely content. It's really my own fault. So much has happenned to me here that I could have never thought would happen. Some of which, I regret-- and now find myself thinking more about. Then, there's the big issue------ MEN. My oh my, I don't know what to do with myself. Shit, I'm afraid of going overboard too quickly-- oh wait-- I already did. Well there goes that. Then there's the good one who moves like a fricken snail. Then there are two others who I immensely connect with.. only problem, both of them are more than a decade older than me. For now, I'm gonna sleep on it. God willing, I'll find internal peace..maybe even a joint.. We'll see. | | |
| Coming back on this site is a bit like stepping into a time warp. It's something that was a part of my past. It's something I look back on and think about how much I've changed since. It's been three years since I've actively used it. When I really used it I was a freshman in high school. Now- just like that, I'm in college. Everything I wondered would happen after high school is now a reality. All my questions of the time, pertaining to school have been answered. Whether I would complete it or not, and whether I'd get into a good college or not, is no longer the issue. It's been a rocky few years. I've been shoved into the darkness, and brought back into the light. I'm most certainly not the same person I was, but I still have a lot of growing up left to do. The once dark, depressed kid is now a blossomed, content woman. I am quite pleased with the way I've turned out and where I'm at now, and it's so strange to be back here. | | |
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